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Heartbroken

Verity is gone.

This is the hardest post I’ve ever written, and I know I’ll never be able to put into words exactly how special she was. But I’m going to try because she deserves that much and so much more, and I need to share the grief and pain that I’m feeling right now.

I don’t want to go into too much detail because I’d rather remember her as the healthy girl she usually was, but I will give you a little back story. Verity hadn’t been feeling well this month, and tests performed on her didn’t give any definitive answers to what was causing it. But she had started to improve this week, and you can’t believe how relieved we were at that improvement. Then, today, she died.

Mom and I are both devastated; I can barely stop crying while typing this. I still can’t believe it – it’s so unreal that she’s gone that I keep hoping it’s just a bad dream and I’ll wake up and she’ll be fine. But I know that it’s not. I know you may be thinking, ‘She was just a dog,’ but she was so much more than that to us.

Her name meant ‘truth’, and here are the truths of Verity: She was the best dog I’ve ever had and the one that truly was more than just a dog. She loved every baby she met, it didn’t matter if it was a chick, goat, donkey, or a human baby. She was always happy with a big smile on her face, and was so well behaved, it was sometimes unreal.

And when I talked to her, she truly understood. Verity is the one thing that helped me through a particularly rough patch last year. She had this way of looking into my eyes that let me know that she heard everything I said and that she loved me. I wish each and everyone of you could have met her in real life because I know you would have loved her just as much as we did.

I’m going to leave you with one of my favorite pictures of her:

Rest in peace sweet Very Lynn. You’ll always live in our hearts.

I just realized as I was sitting here about to press the Publish button, that it’s September 28th – five years to the exact day that my Granddad died. I know they must be together now in Heaven.

12 thoughts on “Heartbroken

  1. So sorry for your loss! Dwight and I will be praying for y’all!

    1. Thank you so much, Sis Wanda, for your prayers. It’s meant so much to us to have everyones’ thoughts and prayers with us during this.

  2. I am so very sorry for your loss 🙁 Hugs aplenty XXX

    1. Thank you Rachy <3 We do miss her more than I ever thought possible, she was such a special dog, really more humanlike than anything else.

  3. ahhh my sweet…any of us who have had to experience any losses, know exactly how you feel..

    1. Thank you so much for your kind comment. You’re right, it’s always so unbelievably hard losing a loved one <3

  4. I am so sorry for your lost I know how you feel lost my old cat and bed buddy last month, and my heart goes out to you and your mom.

    1. Thank you so much for your kind comment, and I’m so very sorry for your loss. I know you must really miss him a lot <3

  5. oh no.. I am so sorry for your loss… Im very sure that Verity is with your Granddad!! Its really sad though that we couldnt find out why she was so sick… You and the family are in our thoughts and I will light a candle for her… big bear hugs and the brightest of blessings xox

    1. He was a big dog lover, so I know he’s taking good care of her for us. I agree, I do wish we had have known what was causing her illness. Honestly, in all my years of being dogs of all shapes & sizes, I’ve never encountered one with anything like it & neither had the vet. We did consider having her necropsied, but we just couldn’t bear the thought of having that done. It obviously wasn’t anything contagious anyways as our other dogs are fine & the vet did have suspicions that it was something genetic that just wasn’t showing up in the tests. Thank you so much for your kind words and blessings <3

  6. Have only just seen this and I can’t tell you how sorry I am that you lost Verity. What a wonderful dog – irreplaceable! Big hugs to you and your mum.

    1. Thank you so much. . . Yours and everyone else’s kind comments have meant so much to us. She was such a special dog, and the heart of our family and farm.

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